英语听力小动画(双语字幕)291
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As I sit at my desk
当我坐在我的办公桌前
I can feel him looking at me
我能感觉到他在看我
his eyes gazing at me
他的眼睛盯着我
dreaming of what could be
梦想着可能是什么
I look up to make eye contact
我抬起头是为了眼神交流
but as fast as I look up
但只要我抬头一看
he looks down and his face Reddens with embarrassment
他低头一看,尴尬得脸都红了
knowing I had just caught him staring
我知道我刚刚看到他在盯着我看
that was Alex
是亚历克斯
he'd been a classmate and friend of mine for two years
他已经是我的同学和朋友两年了
but just recently I was sure he had a crush on me
但就在最近,我确信他迷上了我
The longer it continued
它持续的时间越长
if I'm honest
如果我诚实的话
I began to like the attention
我开始喜欢别人的关注
this wasn't like other guys
这不像其他男人
he wasn't forward and pushy and he hadn't used a single Cheesy Chat-Bin on me
他既不前卫,也不咄咄逼人,他也没有用奶酪聊天盒来对付我
you see
你看
I knew Alex hadn't been in a relationship before
我知道亚历克斯以前没有恋爱过
and I could see how hard it was for him to approach me
我能看出他要接近我有多难
then one day I look up from the bench in the canteen and Alex was standing above me
后来有一天,我从食堂的板凳上抬头一看,亚历克斯就站在我上方
he looked terrified and was silent as he searched for his words
他看起来很害怕,一声不吭地寻找自己的话
then he says it
他就这么说了
would you like to go to the movies with me
你愿意和我一起去看电影吗
I couldn't keep him waiting
我不能让他久等
so I quickly replied yes
所以我很快回答是的
of course there was a look of relief on his face that soon turned into a joyous grin
当然,他脸上流露出宽慰的神色,很快就变成了愉快的笑容
later that night we met in the foyer of the cinema
那天晚上晚些时候,我们在电影院的门厅见面
Alex's first words weren't hello or nice to see you
亚历克斯说的第一句话不是你好也不是很高兴见到你
they were
是的
I'm really nervous
我真的很紧张
I was fine with this as I understood and we continued our evening
据我了解,我对此很满意,我们继续我们的晚上
as the weeks passed
几周过去了
our relationship progressed
我们的关系进步了
I guided Alex through different miles downs like his first date
就像他第一次约会一样,我带领亚历克斯走过了不同的山路
his first hand holding his first kiss and every day I was reassuring him
他的第一只手握住他的初吻,每天我都在安慰他
telling him not to worry
告诉他别担心
I really felt as if I had been there for him
我真的觉得自己好像一直在他身边
we were becoming very close and I knew his worries were just because he loved me
我们变得非常亲密,我知道他的担心只是因为他爱我
then it started to happen
然后它开始发生了
as the days became weeks
日子变成了几周
Alex became more and more affectionate and one in more physical contact
亚历克斯变得越来越深情,身体接触也越来越多
I would refuse and explain that I just wasn't ready
我会拒绝并解释说我还没有准备好
I was happy how we were together and I didn't want to ruin it
我很高兴我们在一起我不想毁了它
I quickly started feeling like I was under water
我很快就觉得自己被水淹没了
smothered by affection
被感情扼杀了
I would ask myself
我想问问自己
am I in the wrong
我做错了吗
should I just say yes
我应该说是吗
as the weeks became months
几周变成了几个月
I could feel myself changing
我能感觉到自己在改变
the more pressure Alex put on me
亚历克斯给我的压力就越大
the more anxious I became and not just in my relationship
我变得越焦虑,而不仅仅是在我的关系中
my whole life I was different around my friends
在朋友面前我的一生都不一样
my family and couldn't focus on my studies any more
我的家人不能再专注于我的学习了
just three months ago
就在三个月前
I was happy holding my Boyfriend's hand and guiding him through his first relationship
我很高兴牵着我男朋友的手,引导他度过他的第一次恋爱
now that boy has gone and it feels that he's forgotten everything we went through together
现在那个男孩走了,感觉他忘记了我们一起经历的一切
I will lay in bed
我要躺在床上
my mind racing like I was trapped inside a bad dream
我的思绪像困在噩梦里一样飞奔
but I was awake
但我当时醒着
wide awake
完全清醒
I would spend every moment of the day and night thinking about our relationship
我每时每刻都在想我们的关系
this was a feeling I hadn't experienced before
这是一种我以前从未经历过的感觉
I felt I had no one to turn to
我觉得我没有人可以求助
the more I kept inside me
我的内心就越多
the more my anxiety would build and the more anxious I got
我越焦虑,我就越焦虑
the harder things became
事情变得越难
I started feeling sick
我开始觉得不舒服
unable to eat
不能吃东西
sleep or concentrate on anything
睡觉或者专注于任何事情
this is the only time in my life I had felt alone
这是我一生中唯一一次感到孤独
We had been together around four months and I just couldn't take it any more
我们在一起大约四个月了,我再也受不了了
Alex's pressure had turned to anger
亚历克斯的压力变成了愤怒
leaving me exhausted and broken
使我精疲力竭,筋疲力尽
I sat crying on my bed
我坐在床上哭泣
how could this happen
怎么会这样
it feels like our roles have been reversed and I know the anxious one and he's full of confidence
感觉我们的角色被颠倒了,我知道焦虑的那个,他充满了信心
the only difference being he is there for me like I was for him
唯一的区别是他在我身边就像我在他身边一样
I had to make it stop and to do this I knew I had to end a relationship
我必须让它停止,要做到这一点,我知道我必须结束一段关系
I was terrified as I approached him
当我走近他时,我吓坏了
I thought back to the day he asked me to cinema and the nerves he must have felt
我回想起他邀请我去看电影的那一天,想起他一定感到的紧张
but this wasn't the same as that
但这和那不一样
these were just butterflies and nerves
这些只是蝴蝶和神经
this must fear
这一定是恐惧
the noises around me seemed to blur into a Deafening hum
我周围的噪音似乎模糊成了震耳欲聋的嗡嗡声
almost like I was under water and my heart was pounding out of my chest
就像我在水里一样,我的心从胸口跳了出来
then I said it
我就说了
Alex
亚历克斯
this isn't working
这没用
we need to break up
我们得分手
The look in his eyes was what I had not seen for a long time
他的眼神是我好久没见过的
but when I remembered well
但当我记得清楚的时候
it was how he used to look at me
他以前就是这么看着我的
anxious
焦虑
worried
担心
he was now back in a situation he hadn't been for
他现在又回到了一个他不曾经历过的境地
his worried look soon turned to anger as he began to shout
当他开始大喊大叫时,他忧虑的表情很快就变成了愤怒
I couldn't take this again
我再也受不了了
so I turned and ran
所以我转身跑了
I just had to be alone
我只想一个人待着
away from everything and everyone
远离一切和所有人
apart from my own thoughts
除了我自己的想法
I sat and reflected on everything that had just happened over the last four months
我坐下来回想过去四个月里发生的一切
of the anxiety inducing relationship
引起焦虑的关系
Rollo closer
再靠近点
we had both been on
我们都上过课
why couldn' he understand and respect my feelings like I had his
为什么他不能像我一样理解和尊重我的感受
how had the boy I was beginning to fall in love with turn into someone
我开始爱上的那个男孩怎么会变成一个人
I ended up feeling like I just didn't know at all
最后我觉得我根本就不知道
Two years have passed since this happened and I still know Alex
这件事发生已经两年了,我仍然认识亚历克斯
in fact
实际上
we're back to being good friends again and we can actually laugh about what we went through
我们又回到了好朋友的位置,我们真的可以笑我们所经历的一切
both knowing
两人都知道
we learnt some valuable lessons
我们学到了一些宝贵的教训
Alex learnt that he has to respect other people's feelings like they respect his
亚历克斯知道他必须尊重别人的感受,就像他们尊重他一样
and I learnt that it is okay to say no when you are not comfortable doing things
我了解到,当你做事情不舒服的时候,说“不”是可以的
we have both now moved on and our new happy understanding
我们现在都向前看了,我们有了新的快乐理解
relationships
关系